Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Light at the end of the tunnel

I have not written in my blog for a long time. I'm just not inspired, I'm sort of hibernating at the moment. Working full time in a stressful environment affects me, my days off become my focus, my precious. Like Gollum I get obsessed with them. Don't touch them, ruin them or steal them, they are mine. I don't like living like that, I don't like myself when I'm stressed, negative and unreasonable.

Uni will start in two weeks and I can't wait. I can't wait to get challenged, use my brain, be inspired, change the world and be surrounded by people who still believe we can. I am a better person when I read and write, simply because it makes me happy. It makes me happy because I'm on the right path when I write. When we get to far away from our dream we get unhappy, it's the world's way of telling us to get back on track. And I will get back. I can see the road ahead of my, not far from where I am, slowly I'm walking towards it, slowly I am wanting to get back on it, slowly I'm gathering the strength I need to walk along it. The road towards achieving your dream is not an easy one along a sandy beach, but I'm ready for it, because an unchallenged me is an unhappy me. Like Paulo Coelho I'm unhappy when I've got nothing to work towards. I am looking forward to being challenged, having my extremely dedicated supervisor and my beautiful boyfriend by my side. Sometimes we are lucky to have people who understand to encourage us to stay on the road.

Yesterday was Valentines day and I fell deeper in love with the man of my dreams. Walking along a beautiful beach hand in hand with him, driving around in an old car he borrowed to surprise me, waking up getting breakfast served in bed, with closed eyes feeling a necklace being closed around your neck, all the things he does to make me feel special. Jeg elsker deg Sean.